I am so tired of waiting. waiting and waiting to start my life. to start going to the parties, to stop feeling ugly and start feeling sexy.
I give myself deadlines and set new ones when they fly by.
I want it to be February so I can go to France and come back another person but if going is all I'm waiting for to become this other person... then why don't I just start now?
Sometimes I think Hazen weighs me down, but other times I am so jealous of him.
I need to get invited to a party.
I need February to HURRY THE FUCK UP.