Okay well the title to this post has nothing to do with the contents.
okay, well Friend A is new this year at our school but I've totaly fallen in love with her.
Friend B has some faults but for a while last year was my best friend and also a crush.
Friend C I've known since elementary school although we've never been very close. I like her, she's nice and she's funny and she's older and we're kind of friends because I've worked really hard to get it that way.
Friend B & C went out last year, and friend A & B are going out now. Friend B is still in love with friend C and friend C has a secret. Friend A is completely head over heels for friend B, but friend B still sleeps in Friend C's bed almost every night (although "nothing" goes on).
This fucking pisses me off.
1. Friend A doesn't deserve to be smudged like this.
2. Friend B needs to get over Friend C because it will never be romanticly working between them.
3. Friend C needs to abolish her secret.
4. If Friend B can not stop emotionally being with Friend C she needs to end it with Friend A because Friend A deserves some one who can be all with her.
I like/love them all but this stupid triangle just pisses me off. I could knock out one of the legs and let it tumble down but a relationship should be between 2 people, and 3rd (or even a 4th) distorts things.
It's none of my bussiness, but they're all my friends.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Don't Worry.
Don't worry boy, soon it'll all be over with. She will eventually move on, and you will eventually be free. She will stop tagging you in notes on facebook, because she will have more recent news to share that you haven't been a part of. Don't worry boy, her girlfriends will scoop her up and keep her company, until another fella comes along. Soon enough her fingers will stop automaticly dialing your phone number, and your love filled texts will expire from her inbox.
Don't you worry, boy, she'll be all right. She's made of harder stuff than you might think. Sooner than you'd think, her tears will stop falling in the moments before sleep. You'll drift away from her night time wanderings, and your laugh will start to fade from the soundtrack she plays for herself. Don't you worry boy, because your name will finally stop stinging, and the label of how it reminds her of you will fall from everything she sees.
Don't you worry, boy, she'll be all right. She's made of harder stuff than you might think. Sooner than you'd think, her tears will stop falling in the moments before sleep. You'll drift away from her night time wanderings, and your laugh will start to fade from the soundtrack she plays for herself. Don't you worry boy, because your name will finally stop stinging, and the label of how it reminds her of you will fall from everything she sees.
Don't worry boy, she'll soon stop calling on you for memories.
Don't worry boy, soon you'll forgive her for breaking your heart.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Nine.
My gosh I wish I was part of the movie Nine.
Is it wrong that I'm 15 and wish I could only be this, if not just for a few moments ?
I wish I could command an audience,
could stirr feelings in every loins,
and walk tall with sexual confidence.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
"A Friend Of A Friend"
You know what sucks ? When a friend stops talking to you, for over a month. Then when you finally broach the gap without appologizing and tell them that it's up to them, and the ball is in their court. Then they come back and tell you that it's "not up to them" and that you can't just say that because it's also up to you to breach the gap.
But what she forgets is every time she gets mad at me and stops talking to me it's me that says first words.
It's always me who reaches out after you Jess, always.
But what she forgets is every time she gets mad at me and stops talking to me it's me that says first words.
It's always me who reaches out after you Jess, always.
Do You Believe In Santa Claus ?
Do You Believe In Santa Claus ?
On December 24th, 1914, on the Western Front of World War One in Ypres, Belgium, the war took a pause. The beginning of this temporary truce began with German soldiers decorating their trenches with miniature Christmas trees, complete with candles. As the candles became lit, so did the smiles of the men shivering in their trenches and they embraced the Christmas sprit.
The soldiers breached the boundaries with song, and “Stille Nacht” and “Silent Night” met in the middle of No Man’s Land. Soon soldiers followed behind the cover of the music and met each other half way between the trenches, between the opinions, and between the war. They exchanged gifts of whisky, jam, cigarettes and chocolate before retreating to their sides.
On Christmas Day the troops woke and ate a bountiful breakfast. After breakfast parties from each side crossed lines to collect the bodies of fallen comrades for proper burial. Some soldiers ventured into the void, and soccer matches ensued. Many soldiers crossed sides for the day, and ate their Christmas dinner with “the enemy”.
“That the guns may fall silent, at least upon the night the angels sang”
- Pope Benedict XV
Christmas is more than a day to receive presents. It is a season to make choices as to who you want to be. You may not believe in Santa Claus, but I do. Believe in the feeling of pride when you give someone a gift that’s been well thought out. I’m not so sure about Coca-Cola’s version of Santa Claus, but just as Christians believe it is their duty to preach the gospel, we need to spread the spirit of Christmas. The real Christmas doesn’t exist in Wal Mart but in our hearts.
“And the Grinch, with his Grinch-feet ice cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling, how could it be so? It came without ribbons. It came without tags. It came without packages, boxes or bags. And he puzzled and puzzled 'till his puzzler was sore. Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before. What if Christmas, he thought, doesn’t come from a store. What if Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more” –Dr. Seuss
You give gifts to your friends, to your family, and to your teachers, but why not include your community this year ? When you volunteer for your community, you give of yourself. Your community is your home, and a house divided will not stand. There are a number of ways you can help out this community season.
The Sooke Lioness Lions annual “Toys 4 Kidz” toy drive for local families has collection boxes in local businesses, including Shopper’s Drug Mart, SEAPARC, and Coast Capital. If you want to volunteer during the actual event you can contact Diane Kent in the Student Development Centre.
The Sooke Food Bank teams up during this event and provides Hamper Baskets full of food for Christmas Dinner. There are food donation boxes in Village Food Markets and Western Foods, which our school hampers will be fed into. The toy drive gives toys to approximately 475 children each year, and supports over 200 families with Christmas Dinner Hampers.
This Christmas season you don’t have to be a soldier in battle to remember to share Christmas spirit, and you don’t have to be in a World War. Each of us fight our own wars each day, and remembering this should be a part of your holiday compassion. It’s a time to forgive, and a time to remember. So whether you believe in God, in Wal Mart, or in Jehovah, don’t forget the spirit of Santa Claus this year.
“No known species of reindeer can fly. But there are 300,000 species of living organisms yet to be classified. While most of these are insects and germs, this does not completely rule out flying reindeer.”
written for the EMCS Review Newspaper :)
On December 24th, 1914, on the Western Front of World War One in Ypres, Belgium, the war took a pause. The beginning of this temporary truce began with German soldiers decorating their trenches with miniature Christmas trees, complete with candles. As the candles became lit, so did the smiles of the men shivering in their trenches and they embraced the Christmas sprit.
The soldiers breached the boundaries with song, and “Stille Nacht” and “Silent Night” met in the middle of No Man’s Land. Soon soldiers followed behind the cover of the music and met each other half way between the trenches, between the opinions, and between the war. They exchanged gifts of whisky, jam, cigarettes and chocolate before retreating to their sides.
On Christmas Day the troops woke and ate a bountiful breakfast. After breakfast parties from each side crossed lines to collect the bodies of fallen comrades for proper burial. Some soldiers ventured into the void, and soccer matches ensued. Many soldiers crossed sides for the day, and ate their Christmas dinner with “the enemy”.
“That the guns may fall silent, at least upon the night the angels sang”
- Pope Benedict XV
Christmas is more than a day to receive presents. It is a season to make choices as to who you want to be. You may not believe in Santa Claus, but I do. Believe in the feeling of pride when you give someone a gift that’s been well thought out. I’m not so sure about Coca-Cola’s version of Santa Claus, but just as Christians believe it is their duty to preach the gospel, we need to spread the spirit of Christmas. The real Christmas doesn’t exist in Wal Mart but in our hearts.
“And the Grinch, with his Grinch-feet ice cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling, how could it be so? It came without ribbons. It came without tags. It came without packages, boxes or bags. And he puzzled and puzzled 'till his puzzler was sore. Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before. What if Christmas, he thought, doesn’t come from a store. What if Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more” –Dr. Seuss
You give gifts to your friends, to your family, and to your teachers, but why not include your community this year ? When you volunteer for your community, you give of yourself. Your community is your home, and a house divided will not stand. There are a number of ways you can help out this community season.
The Sooke Lioness Lions annual “Toys 4 Kidz” toy drive for local families has collection boxes in local businesses, including Shopper’s Drug Mart, SEAPARC, and Coast Capital. If you want to volunteer during the actual event you can contact Diane Kent in the Student Development Centre.
The Sooke Food Bank teams up during this event and provides Hamper Baskets full of food for Christmas Dinner. There are food donation boxes in Village Food Markets and Western Foods, which our school hampers will be fed into. The toy drive gives toys to approximately 475 children each year, and supports over 200 families with Christmas Dinner Hampers.
This Christmas season you don’t have to be a soldier in battle to remember to share Christmas spirit, and you don’t have to be in a World War. Each of us fight our own wars each day, and remembering this should be a part of your holiday compassion. It’s a time to forgive, and a time to remember. So whether you believe in God, in Wal Mart, or in Jehovah, don’t forget the spirit of Santa Claus this year.
“No known species of reindeer can fly. But there are 300,000 species of living organisms yet to be classified. While most of these are insects and germs, this does not completely rule out flying reindeer.”
written for the EMCS Review Newspaper :)
Thursday, December 3, 2009
untitled
All the smoke is hazy
as I walk into the bar.
The lights are many colors
but still I cannot see far.
I thought I was running late
but it seems I'm just in time.
On the stage the show is starting
and the girl sparkles through the grime.
She spins her frilled umbrella
'round and 'round her head.
There are dreams behind her eyes
unfortunately long since dead.
She courageously strutts and dips
as I head towards my seat.
Now she's standing over me
and I'm looking at my feet.
The place it corruptly reeks
of marriages in their dead end.
There is a false hope hanging
just around the bend.
I really feel I shouldn't be here,
it's only for the girl I show up.
The men with their prying fingers
make me want to throw up.
I don't want to see her in the feathers.
I don't want to see her in the tassles.
I want to see her in the meadows.
I want to see her in the castles.
My arm shoots away from me,
and searches to find her hand.
"Let me take you away from here
love, come to a new land."
She smiles slowly down at me
"Darlin I'm gonna go far.
Don't worry about me,
babe I'm gonna be a star"
as I walk into the bar.
The lights are many colors
but still I cannot see far.
I thought I was running late
but it seems I'm just in time.
On the stage the show is starting
and the girl sparkles through the grime.
She spins her frilled umbrella
'round and 'round her head.
There are dreams behind her eyes
unfortunately long since dead.
She courageously strutts and dips
as I head towards my seat.
Now she's standing over me
and I'm looking at my feet.
The place it corruptly reeks
of marriages in their dead end.
There is a false hope hanging
just around the bend.
I really feel I shouldn't be here,
it's only for the girl I show up.
The men with their prying fingers
make me want to throw up.
I don't want to see her in the feathers.
I don't want to see her in the tassles.
I want to see her in the meadows.
I want to see her in the castles.
My arm shoots away from me,
and searches to find her hand.
"Let me take you away from here
love, come to a new land."
She smiles slowly down at me
"Darlin I'm gonna go far.
Don't worry about me,
babe I'm gonna be a star"
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