Well, I haven't written in a while. Life is cruisin along slowly, but why am I even saying this ? no one reads this anyways... I started writing to keep my sanity but now I've grown up, and hardly ever write anymore unless it's for school. I'm just too busy, maybe that's what growing up is like... stopping the stuff that you love because you've got to earn the money, make the grade and fuel the man.
fuck this shit, I'm going surfing.

I gotta say, you're driving me crazy.

blah blah blah.

what is mediocre passion?

it's a couple coming together for the first time in months

and wondering why they fussed so much

about this activity's absence.

It's faking sick to get your schoolwork done

and spending the day watching

others compete olympically.

It's not writing in your blog, or in your journal

because you fall to your bed exhausted

without the energy for the pen.

It's wondering if she likes him, instead of her

who likes another, who liked the orginal

who is friends with me.

It's making food because you're starving

then eating it with extreme reluctance

while looking at your stomach.

It's reading books to get away from your life

instead of going out

and living it.

I am so exhausted.

we are going back to school on monday, but I feel like I haven't even had a holiday.
one thing having a dimentia grandma living at home does ; ruin your fucking holiday.

Merry Christmas !

Okay well the title to this post has nothing to do with the contents.
okay, well Friend A is new this year at our school but I've totaly fallen in love with her.
Friend B has some faults but for a while last year was my best friend and also a crush.
Friend C I've known since elementary school although we've never been very close. I like her, she's nice and she's funny and she's older and we're kind of friends because I've worked really hard to get it that way.

Friend B & C went out last year, and friend A & B are going out now. Friend B is still in love with friend C and friend C has a secret. Friend A is completely head over heels for friend B, but friend B still sleeps in Friend C's bed almost every night (although "nothing" goes on).

This fucking pisses me off.
1. Friend A doesn't deserve to be smudged like this.
2. Friend B needs to get over Friend C because it will never be romanticly working between them.
3. Friend C needs to abolish her secret.
4. If Friend B can not stop emotionally being with Friend C she needs to end it with Friend A because Friend A deserves some one who can be all with her.

I like/love them all but this stupid triangle just pisses me off. I could knock out one of the legs and let it tumble down but a relationship should be between 2 people, and 3rd (or even a 4th) distorts things.
It's none of my bussiness, but they're all my friends.